The Crash

I didn't update my blog for days bcoz my system is crash or i should say "broke down". I dun think i'm having any problem with the software. But im suspecting the motherboard or HDD to give me a trouble now. With bad internet network, no PC, bad network coverage for phone, my life here in Bukit Antarabangsa is so bored. I cant wait to go back to my hometown tonight.

A lot of thing happened during these few days. Especially with my Mr. Sayang. Apparently, he didnt give up yet asking me to find a replacement, for my "happiness". But dont worry sayang, i knw u just say it and did not really mean it. So, i won't find anyone to take ur place in my heart. How do i know that u dun really mean it? Coz u show me how jealous u are when i'm informed u that i am in Farah's house, which means i'm in his bf's house just to having some rest for 1 or 2 hours before iftar. But its ok, i love it when u r jealous. Its means that u r still loving me.

Our memories keep coming to my mind. Especially the memories of our last meeting. I am really regretting for didn't give u my all on that day. I didn't expect that July 21 is gonna be our last time together. If i knw it, i won't let u go that easy on that day. And as u knw, i refused to say good bye to u bcoz im hoping for that day not to become our last. And for now, even i can't greet u "Good Morning", "Good Evening" or "Good Night" everyday, i still can't say "Good Bye" to u.

Sayang, u know that i'm willing to do anything as long as its for you. You can ask me to do anything, I'll do it even it will hurt me. You can ask me to wait for u forever, i dun mind. BUT pls, dun ask me to stop loving u, replace u or stop contacting u. I will never stop doing all those thing. U r my drugs. I'm addicted to u. So, it is kinda hard for me to survive without u. I am OK, i'm still strong as long as i knw that i'm still loving u and u r still there for me, even u r 10k miles away from me.

So Sayang, hope u r understand how strong is my feeling towards u. And those feeling will grow more and never decreased. Pls hold to our promise, that u gonna let me know if u have someone else over there, wife or gf. I will understand it but i will keep loving u and be your friend. Till then, let us love each other and stop asking for someone else. I LOVE YOU!

Loving You,

Cik Meow (Mrs. MS)

P/s my computer is down :( ..but i will call u tonight! :)

The Conversation

I remembered the conversation that we had in the taxi from IKEA to 1utama, for Anyz's birthday celebration.

Saturday, July 16

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Taxi Driver = TD

Mr. Sayang = MS

Cik Meow = CM

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TD : Brother, is this your girl? *referring to me*
MS : yeah
TD : Melayu ke dik? (Trans : Are you malay)
CM : A'ah. Melayu. (Trans : Yup.I'm malay)
TD : Where do you guys staying? *TD thought we are staying together; which is normally happened in Damansara area*
MS : Me in Puchong, she is around this area

TD : So, u come this far just to meet your girl?
MS : Yeah, it is.
TD : So sweet of you. Girl, please don't break this guy's heart.
CM : Insya-Allah tak kan pak cik (Trans : Sure i will not)

TD : Dia ni orang mana dik? (Trans : Where is your boyfriend comes from)
CM : Sudan kot *looking at him*
MS : Yeah. I'm from Sudan *wink*
TD : Ok good. I thought you are from Africa. You know, African is so bad. You need to be careful with them. Especially Nigerian. But Sudanese are good. *[1]maybe DT doesn't know that Sudan is a part of Africa. [2]he is not from Sudan!*
CM : Dia bukan orang sana, Pak Cik. (Trans : He is not from there(Africa/Nigeria)) *Sorry TD for the lie*

TD : Good. So brother, you have a Malay girl. Can you speak in Malay?
MS : Boleh cakap sikit-sikit (Trans : i can speak a little)
TD : So, tell me something good.

MS : Saya sayang dia *pointing at me* (Trans : I adore her)

TD : You "sayang" or love her?

MS : Saya sayang dan cinta dia (Trans : I adore and love her)
CM : And i love u more *of course i'm just whispered it to him*

TD : Bagus. Sayang betul dia kat adik. Adik serius ke dengan dia ni? *Asking me* (Trans : Good. Looks like he really love you. Are you serious with him?)
MS : I am serious. But i don't know about her.
CM : Saya serious kalau dia serious, Pak Cik (Trans : I am serious too, if he is serious about me)

TD : Eh, paham plak dia ni. (Trans : Ooh. He understand us)

CM : Sayang, do u understand what are we talking about?
MS : Saya paham apa awak cakap (Trans : yeah. I do understand)

CM : Great! *and our conversation keep going on with another few topics*

This is a very long conversation coz we stuck in traffic jammed due to road construction around. I am really impressed with his Malay language efficiency. Even its sound a little awkward, but he still can pronounce and understand it well. And i'm really shocked with what he told the taxi driver; that he is serious with me.

Thanks sayang. Hope every single words that u said that day is true. I'm here, still waiting for you and always loving u, with all my heart.

Loving You,

Cik Meow

Forgiveness

I am inspired by this video..Watch this and i'm sure that u gonna be inspired too..

"Forgiveness doesn't change the past. But it brightens the future."

Let us forgive each other by today. Forget the pasts and live for the future.

Dear parents, sorry for always being stubborn.

Dear brothers, sorry for always having fight with you.

Dear lover, sorry for loving you so much.

Dear Mr. O, sorry that i can't accept your love.

Dear ex-es, sorry for broken your heart.

Dear bestfriends, sorry if i ever doubt you.

Dear friends, sorry if i'm not being a good friend to you.

Dear haters, sorry that i make you hates me.

Dear people, sorry if i've done something wrong or hurts you.

Sincerely Apologizing,

Cik Meow

Workaholic?

Am i a workaholic? I think i am. I remembered when i was working in Malaysian Civil Defence Department (JPAM). I'm willing to stay over up to 8pm or 9pm alone in the office just because i love to be in the office; even they didn't pay me much.

Talking about work, i have been jobless for almost two months. Actually i have been hired by a company in Kelana Jaya even before i finished my exam. But maybe my luck is not there. Or i should say that i dun have a good chemistry with the company. I resigned after 2 weeks working there.

After resigning, i have applying for a lot of job. I have about 9 interviews call but i attended only 5 of them (bcoz of some circumstances). The first interview i went is for a position that i didn't apply for. Marketing Executive for an e-learning company. They found my resume in jobstreet and want to interview me. I just give it a try even i'm not really interested for that position. In the same week, i went to my 2nd interview for an outsourcing company for HP Malaysia. My application have passed in the outsourcing company but not in HP. The HP's people said i have met their requirement and passed their test but i'm lack of working experience. So, they can't hire me because of work experience. Then, for the next week, i have been called for an interview/test in IBM located in Bandar Utama. The math test is very hard but i managed to pass it to join the group discussion.

While waiting for the next interview in IBM, i went back to my home town to get some rest (i didn't have any holiday since i finished my study). So, i have been rejected a lot of interview calls. After 2 weeks having holiday, i got interested in one of the offer but they required knowledge in Microsoft Excel. So, i used my freetime to practice Excel. FYI, i have never using the functions in Excel before. My course didn't require me to use Excel. So, learning Excel from scratch to advance level (do pivot table and VlookUp can be categorized as advance level?) is so hard for me to do it in just 1 week time. As the interview turned out bad for me (i passed the test with excellent marks), i'm give up to waiting for this company's reply. So, i just try my luck to work in HSBC Cyberjaya. The process was tough. At first, they gave me online test by email. After i passed the test, they called me for an interview by phone. Next, they invite me for another test and interview in their office. I don't know either my interview was bad or good coz the interviewer interviewed me for only 3 minutes compared to other interviewer who done it in 15minutes; they give review about the test, the tips for interview and some random question about current issues which is i don't have to go through any of them.

As a very negative minded (always think of worst situation could happen) person, i assumed that they will not call me for 2nd interview. So, i am bit down and frustrated with myself. As I'm putting my frowning face, I got a call from landline number. So, i expect it to be the call from another company who want to interview me. But, surprisingly, the call is from the company that i went for the interview last week. They just call me to asked me to check my email and reply to them as soon as possible. They didn't provide me with any other information. But once i checked my mail, i was surprise when i read this :

*Printscreen of my email*

*Offer letter*

[Click images to enlarge]

Yeah, i got the job. I have been hired by the company that having Microsoft Excel test. Alhamdulillah. I will start working in September. Pls pray for my success with this company. Thx.

Peace and Love,

Cik Meow

U choose; ambition or abortion?

I found this video on my friend's FB wall, Roshan Ebi Samuel. It is a very interesting infographic awareness video. I love it!

I like the background music as well :)

Peace and Love,

Cik Meow

Always the Smarter Choice

Voice Call
Yellow line to +234 (area code) mobile; 2 minutes 54 secs = RM1.80
Yellow line to Yellow line; 53 secs = RM0.80

SMS
Yellow line to +234 (area code) mobile = sometimes RM0.25, most of the time RM0.00
Yellow line to Yellow line = RM0.20

Either they understand and love me so much or bcoz they are "always the smarter choice"

I think maybe its bcoz that i love u so much..hahaha

Peace,

Cik Meow

Waiting.

Every time i listened to this song, i will keep thinking of u. The lyrics really suits our situation. So, i dedicated this song to u.

Oceans apart, day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever?

Wherever you go, whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times

That I though would last somehow

I hear the laughter, I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it, baby?

You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it, baby?

You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

Keep waiting for u,

Cik Meow